a big decision

I made a big decision a year or so ago. I live in a psychiatric nursing home and face enormous obstacles to getting a job. So I decided that instead of mounting an operation to get one, I would mount an operation to mediate with the universe and bring a solution to my problem of living decently and having heirs by acting in such a concerted manner and with such a commanding understanding of life and universe that the solution would present itself spontaneously. That was the decision. Now we will see if it was effective.