Monday, October 26, 2009
I have come to the conclusion that my experience looking for girls to have sex with as an undergraduate at Yale left unsolved the question of where sex is in my life, and the temporary answer was pretty much just prostitution at a $0 per hour rate. I believe I have come reasonably closer to a real answer and it includes that one-night stands and pornography are not in my best interest. My courtship of Crystal Newell, now over, played a part in coming to this answer. If she had answered yes to the question of is she attracted to me, instead of no as it was, I could have made more progress in answering the question of where sex is in my life. I will have to make do with not being so able to progress for a while. Looking for someone to court is very different from having someone to court.
No one night stands or pornography for me any more.
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