Friday, January 9, 2009

der, rder, rrder, rrrder, and rrrrder

I have created some new terms regarding order. I take the or- off to get the fragment der. Then I start adding back on r's.

der no order intended
rder this order intended only
rrder a different order meant, usually with reference to only two items
rrrder a random order indicated
rrrrder all orders intended

If I give a list of items I have to give them in a particular order. I may not want to point to that order. To indicate this, I note somewhere by the list "der", if I intend no order.

If I have inherited a list of my own through work which I want to keep the order of and want to specify this, I write "rder" by the list.

If I want to refer to a different order, especially if there are only two items and thus only two possible orders, I write "rrder" by the list.

If I need to refer to some randomly chosen order of a list I write "rrrder" by the list.

If I want to refer to all possible orders of the list I write "rrrrder" by the list.

not and nat, new terms for parallel use

I have created a term useful in comparing positive and negative actions. English achieves negative action by adding do plus the negative not, or n't. This disallows parallel comparison of positive and negative action. English says: He bought the paper. He didn't buy the paper. This is not parallel and it causes disruption of orderly thought. I say instead: He did nat buy the paper. He did not buy the paper. These are positive, with nat, and negative, with not. Nat is my new term. When comparing with no, I use na.

new terms for money transactions

I have created some words having to do with money transactions. When you look at an item for sale from the viewpoint of the consumer, rather than the producer, I call that item a sumuct, as opposed to a product. It's the same item, only the details of its manufacture are irrelevant. It's what the item can do for me once I've bought it that matters to me, and I call it by a name that connotes everything I think of it as a part of my belongings.

The context of the point of transaction, viewed from the point of the producer, whether manufacturer, opera impresario, or online publisher, is called situgony, taking from the words situation and cosmogony, or the beginning of the universe in astronomy. the same context, viewed from the point of the consumer, is called positration, taking from the root of deposit.

apergress and epergress

I have two words I created for the condition of movement through the environment toward a meal, apergress, and movement through the environment from a meal, epergress.

my new girlfriend, Crystal Newell

For two months I have been dating a girl named Crystal Newell who is a fellow resident at the nursing home where I live. Our first date was to the Art Institute of Chicago, with dinner beforehand at an Italian restaurant called Tedino's on Sheridan Road. Then I bought season tickets to the Lyric Opera, four operas. We saw Bizet's The Pearl Fishers. Then I had a crisis of confidence in Crystal's interest before the second opera, when she let her mother's schedule conflict with ours. I called off the date without trying to resolve the matter.

But then Crystal later came to me and asked if we could go out again. She was genuine and I took her to Tedino's on the 24th of December. At that time I said it was okay for us to go to the opera again.

Crystal is African American and lovely, with a slim feminine figure. She is sharp, untutored, and raw. Very quiet. A speedy walking pace. Alternately poised and frazzled. And 25 years old, as of yesterday, to my 58. We were planning to go out to dinner for my birthday but she had an argument with her mother and the staff, as things like that do happen with us mentally ill despite our conformity to good practice, and was put on restriction so she couldn't go out of the building, and won't be able to until they decide to drop it.

The next event we plan on is Wagner's Tristan und Iseult at Lyric, Feb. 16. She should be able to beat the rap before then.

After each date I kiss her on the cheek. She's getting to trust me more. I'm getting to be confident she likes me. Her roommate, a friend of mine, says she has a steady stream of gentleman callers who she says "no" to, all of them, and they don't come back. That's good. I want her.

essential atom particle and wave

This theory of mental illness of mine is a work in physics. The essential atom I refer to has properties of both a particle and a standing wave. It is localized in residence at the center of the sphere of interest, and it is also spread out throughout the universe of all spheres of interest. this dual nature is in line with the essential atom being an elementary particle or particles.

villification of homosexuality

Homosexuality is vicious, heinous, and deceptive. Anyone I know is gay or bi of either sex i will refuse to talk to them. It must be stamped out.

Staples endorsement

I have found Staples to be the best of the office supply stores. Their own brand supplies are superior to any on the market. I particularly like their calendars, for economy, commodity, and delight, the three elements of good design I learned from Peter Beltemacchi, my professor at IIT architecture graduate school. but, returning to Staples, I find the store design is equally attentive to the three elements. and it is always quiet, probably something having to do with the architecture itself. I would recommend Staples to anyone with an advanced office mentality.

coming across Debby Wellander after 50 years

This morning I had a doctor's appointment at Methodist Hospital.

As I was going to sit down after having an x-ray done, a woman was called out of the waiting room by name, Deborah Wellander. I recognized the name as a girl who was in classes with me at Ben Franklin elementary school in Glen Ellyn, IL. Yes, it was Debby. She looked just like her.

I debated whether to say something to her. I don't think i ever spoke to her as a child. She was the target of vicious taunting by other students and she didn't like it. I never did it, but then I never objected.

I decided to wait and not just then talk to her, maybe not at all. But thinking it over I decided it was something I should do.

She was in with the doctor and I was called and seated waiting in the hall.

Then she came out, I stood, and introduced myself, mentioning Ben Franklin in Glen Ellyn. The aide with her looked at me worriedly. I reassured her with a smile. Debby was not recognizing me, or else just not acknowledging she knew me. She was uncomfortable with it. I gathered from her utterance that she was still a bit clumsy. But she had weathered time well, and was not apparently handicapped. Methodist Hospital cares mostly for the nursing home community.

After my visit with the doctor I was passing the waiting room and Debby was there looking out. I smiled at her. That was the last I saw of her.

I hope she is well.