Sunday, December 21, 2008

my Roman blood

Although my family didnt know it when I was growing up, I and my siblings are Roman. Establishing Roman ancestry is not an easy thing. In England it is very prized to be of Roman blood, however, again, it is not easy to verify and many people attempt to boost their prestige there by claiming to be Roman without any supporting documentation. the Romans of course at one time occupied England.

The reason I believe I can claim to be Roman is that when I was doing work as a model for artists I did a job at Boston University and the teacher commented to the class that this model, me, had a Roman head. Now you can dispute the authenticity of this reference, and I will never play it up as if my life depended on it, but as a point of departure I think it's pretty solid. Art teachers have training in all the civilizations in history, especially Rome, and I think they would be assumed to be able to tell a Roman head from a non Roman head.

The reason I mention England is that one of our ancestors names was King. I assume this line originated in England. I don't assume the first of this line was a monarch type king because from my genealogical research I know that the name King came about often when someone was an actor playing the part of a king, and took that name subsequently.

Being Roman, I am granted kinship with the Italians, and being their kin I was accepted into their elite ranks as first, because of something I did in 1992, and I presume because all my other life details were acceptable.

The story of my becoming first I tell in the sidebar video titled, "first".

might get a computer

As you may know I use the Chicago Public Library to access the internet as I have no computer of my own. I will be coming into a little money now and I may decide to invest in a mini computer. This will enable me to spend more time at my blog. As of now I have to use extreme selectivity in writing, down to every word, because I have so much more I want to write than I have time for. If I get the computer this will radically change the tenor of my blog. We will see.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

a blog reference to relevance, irrelevance, and Jesus

I found a blog with a post about relevance, irrelevance, and Jesus. it is here. It's a pretty traditional discussion, with some cross castigation. I can't say as I find it personally useful, but I thought I would give any readers a chance to look at it.

Friday, December 19, 2008

knowledge

This is a knowledge blog. It's obvious from a look around other blogs that they are generally diary blogs. I don't happen to be a time filler. I have evolved a world view. Time for me is what the world does in response to my world view. Some follow me. Most do not. They all feel my movements.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Moses and the burning bush, glenellynboy and the burning building

The story of how I got there is too long to tell now. but there I was. I sighted from my outstretched hand to the building across the street. A fire emerged from the building. It danced around the surface of the building, moving in an intelligent way, investigating the surface, the windows, the walls. It lasted for a number of seconds, then disappeared back into the building. There was no voice. The nature of the fire was variegated. It was compressed into a small linearity. It had a sparkling nature. It was fairly bright, about the intensity of a 200 watt light bulb at the same distance. The story of how I got from there to here is also too long to tell now.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

why in mental illness the inner membrane collapses but the outer one does not

I have to show how my theory predicts that the inner membrane collapses under mental illness but the outer membrane doesn't. Well, there is a connection. I can't show the details because it's all in my own character set which doesn't type, but in general it is that the phenomenon which brings about mental illness is gas exchange in breathing. And since the fetus in the womb doesn't breathe air, the membrane that forms at that time is not vulnerable--the outer one. After birth breath begins, so the membrane that forms then--the inner one--is vulnerable.

Monday, December 15, 2008

another author's different meaning for "exterest"

I have found an interesting (!) post somewhere that coins and uses exterest differently than I do. The post is here. This author discusses some of the things that seem to be true of interest to one general degree or another. None of it directly bears on my discussion.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

mental illness, interest, and exterest--a special case

Mentally ill people, and I speak from experience, have a terrible condition in omniterest. Their entire sphere of interest is equal to a giant median because the inner membrane is collapsed to the very center of the sphere, leaving a median whose thickness is equal to the radius of the sphere. As a result, whenever other people enter the details of the person's interest, no matter how close to the center they get, the nature of the space there is exactly a median, and has properties of the domain outside the sphere and properties of the domain inside the sphere. The inside, however, being contracted completely inside the collapsed inner membrane, is terribly pathological and even though it may be controlled by medication, the medications available only serve to relax this condition and do not resurrect the inner membrane. All throughout the volume of the mentally ill person's sphere of interest, outsiders, because this region is a median in nature, will involve themselves in analysis of the person and will decide whether to remain interested or to depart, just as happens in normal persons' medians, but in the mentally ill this is the dynamic throughout the entire region of interest. There is no real inside where others want to explore at liesure and in comfort, without any pressing urge to depart.

the formation of the two membranes of the boundary between interest and exterest

The formation of both the inner and outer membranes, of the boundary between interest and exterest, must be an organic process, since we are talking about people's acquired capacity to interest others and that happens as a natural consequence of our metabolisms. How does it happen that the boundary between ourselves and others, which we think of as our "identity" out of the accumulated paradigm of mankind, now superceded by this picture of omniterest which I am promoting here, takes a two membrane form rather than a one membrane form? Isn't identity of normal people unitary? Well, the answer would seem to me to be that, one, the two membranes act in concert and are not two identities, and, two, that it would seem reasonable to conjecture that the timing of the formation of the membranes is that the outer one begins to form at conception and is constructed blind to the world during the time of pregnancy, the universe being guessed at through the medium of the mother's experience as impressed upon the fetus's experience, then at birth the construction of this membrane, though it continues, undergoes a dramatic change in nature because the intermediary mother is gone. at the same time, at birth, the construction of the inner membrane begins, and that one is directly based on the perceptions of the person himself. from the moment of birth, the essential atom expands the size of the inner membrane, pushing the outer membrane to expand just outside it, so that the child tries to get the most out of the mother's nurturing nature which permeates the home and the universe outside it, as qualified by the participation of the father, however that happens to occur.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

terest, the undifferentiated potential for interest or exterest

A sphere of interest is a representation of a function of information, rather than a representation of information itself. The information which is the argument of the function certainly has a distribution which itself is a function of physical space--two memory locations in a computer have different locations in space and both contain specific information--but this information is not modeled by the picture I have given of interest and exterest, nor is its distribution in space. the persons who populate, so to speak, each sphere of interest, produce the effect of a setting off of a region of information as argument which does stimulate interest, and a region of information which does not, relative to a motile atom of essence, as I am somewhat archaically calling it, of any particular person. suffice it to say that information produces an extensiveness which produces this effect, irrespective of its nature in any other sense.

We have used the term "omniterest" to refer to the union of the region of interest with the region of exterest. It is dependent for its significance on the reduction of references to one center of a sphere of interest at a time. Omniterest may effectively summon up as its referent all of the space we are discussing, but it does so with the necessary division of that space into interest and exterest, and therefore it assumes one or another center of a sphere of interest is invoked to give that division meaning. We will refer to the space which holds this omniterest as terest, the undifferentiated potential for interest or exterest.

Friday, December 12, 2008

variation of size of boundary between exterest and interest, and the interspherical region

It is hard to avoid the conviction that the size of the sphere of interest varies greatly from person to person. We can conclude this for one thing because the details which constitute the interest aspect of a person certainly grow in number from birth to the prime of life, so from that standpoint alone people have different sizes of the sphere of interest just as people have different ages. but more than this, some people, for one reason or another, tend to accumulate details capable of interesting others at a great rate while others do so at a slight rate, thus adding to the variability of the size of people's spheres of interest.

It is inherent in the picture of the sphere separating exterest from interest that it separates the phenomena of on the one hand, experiencing details as interesting, and on the other, experiencing them as not interesting. Same details. different response. Essentially, we ignore the interest of the person himself in the details of himself. That is really just another form of detail, and as such it has a place somewhere in the sphere. the picture is of the dynamic of the movement of peoples' interest here and there, and the effect of this interpretation is that each person has an atomlike essence whose location relative to these spheres of interest of everyone represents what he is interested in at any given moment. It is exactly as if within the sphere of interest is generated a motile body of dimensions much smaller than the sphere, which can travel anywhere. It can travel inside one's own sphere, into the space outside its own sphere where it has some relation to other spheres, and can make a decision to enter someone else's sphere. When this essense atom is in the space between spheres it must prevent itself from entering where it might be unwelcome, and it must analyze spheres for their potential interesting nature, all done with a much less dense flux of information than when it is inside some one or other sphere.

This is quite a lot and we will take a pause.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Mastercard endorsement

I have had a Mastercard credit card now for over a year. It is my business credit card. I find it a valuable part of my business operation, perhaps the most valuable, other than my drawing talent. The concept of having a line of credit, so that I can be aggressive today beyond my cash assets, and pay for it tomorrow, is a very sensible way to do business, both for me and for the credit card company and the bank that pays my charges. The simplicity of the card over cash, which entails keeping track of very many individual objects of coins and notes, is a strategic business vehicle in itself. I am always more than glad to pay the interest each month, knowing how this expense gives me value in the way I live and do business.

VISA credit card endorsement

I have had a VISA credit card for over a year now. I would say it is responsible for a large part of my security today, in dollar terms. Without it, my health would be poorer because I would not have eaten as well. Though all my available cash goes to make the monthly minimum payments, I have calculated this part of my budget over the next year and it looks like i am in ship shape.I get three meals a day at my nursing home. These are on the order of 70% eatable. While this is a problem, it is not as big a problem as being homeless, which I was for eight years. So you can see why i say the VISA card has been good for me. it's not a grant. I have to pay it all back eventually, plus interest of course. But in my line of work, that is, being the first of the chicago mafia, every moment in the present, spent on pivotal details, means a whole lot more high functioning structure in my world than would exist otherwise, and thereby the means of paying for the present use of those funds will more than likely be ready at hand.

I also have a Mastercard for business.

Monday, December 8, 2008

claiming victory in barack obama's election

As the sidebar video entitled, "first", discusses, my first public comment that I wanted to join the mafia, stated to two police officers, made note that I wanted to heal relations between blacks and whites. Ever since then I have acted consistent with that expression and with a substantial but unaccustomed apprehension of the powers at my call to accomplish it. Foremost was the decision to maintain public silence on this issue so as not to attract attention to it as a policy of the chicago mafia, an approach which seemed to me more in keeping with the mafia way of doing business, most notably in its "code of silence". I kept to this decision despite one gang leader's urges that I go public with the policy.

During this policy's duration I made two $20 contributions to black organizations, and told no one except that one of them, to the United Negro College Fund, I allowed to send a confidential announcement of to the assistant administrator of the nursing home where I live. She never spoke of receiving it, which is perfectly within the policy of silence. The other organization I sent money to was a New York, help the homeless who want to work, group.

My own writing, shown to no one, approached the issue from a general political openness, allowing both a partisanship with racists, for what I saw as reasonable grounds, which I was personally able to do as the son of a racist, and a partisanship with liberals, which my mother prepared me to do quite effectively.

As a result of this policy, and because I took the heat of circumstances without declaring I was first of Chicago, except to a few close associates, I can safely say that I was the reason Barack Obama's greatness was perceived by the American electorate in 2008.

opposition to my actions as First of Chicago's Mafia

During the past 16 years, I have held the belief that the opposition I was sensing to my actions as First of the Mafia in Chicago was wrong, that it was a manifestation of a wrong perception of me on the part of someone who should have known better. It is my updated view, today, that the opposition is not wrong, but must be assumed as a part of being First, and that the thing to do is get on with it. I don't advise people to oppose my actions, however, nor do I wish to take a laissez-faire attitude toward it. On the other hand, I must accept that being First necessarily entails deeply unpopular actions, even among the personnel of the Mafia itself, or else nothing ambitious is being done, no risks are being taken, and nobody's reputation is on the line. From the very beginning, me being First in Chicago, something ambitious was being done, risks were being taken, and somebody's reputation was on the line. So while at the start I was put off by the opposition I felt, now I see better that that is only natural, and a part of the landscape for a position as important as First of the Mafia in Chicago, if one takes it seriously, and how can one not?

This in no way lessens the reasonableness, from its own point of view, of any particular position of opposition to my actions as first, but neither does it substantiate such opposition. Furthermore, the opposition is not expected to diminish just because it gets my blessings, as a certain perspective might put it. But also it may happen that the drag on me of opposition stops being so aggravating as it was before, when I took it as something in need of attention down to the most minute detail.

This development comes in parallel with continuing progress in my home bureau on some major quantitative work which has been slowed up considerably by the opposition of poor comprehension, a condition which seems, with successive rounds of discovery of better ways to express the work, to be, possibly entirely, caused by departures from perfectly expressive form, this being my own responsibility. The perception of the work is rife with imperfections of logic, my own closely held logic and the logic held somewhat less closely which may be more proprietary to the greater universe in which I operate, a universe not normally seen in so personal a way by those who are not mentally ill. It must correspondingly be pointed out, however it may seem that this is an admission of my having pathological symptoms of mental illness, that the work I have done enables me to say that these less closely held logical phenomena have been brought considerably closer and under better control, as a result of my complete theory of mental illness, as partially revealed in the obelisk statement (update: obelisk now removed.) in the sidebar. This is a vast subject and I am not about to leap into it at this time.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

hunger and blogging

I have to say that I am overwhelmed by the difference in wealth between bloggers and myself. It seems everyone else has his own home, lots of paraphenalia, and spends money everywhere he goes, never is hungry. His choice is generally what to buy, not whether to buy. I live on social security. What my nursing home Doesnt take from me is $30 a month. So as I walk by the coffee shops I face the decision whether to use my credit card, already near its limit, because a coffee and pastry would be soooo nice, or suck it up and walk by without going in. All my $30 now goes to card payments. The little bit i earn goes there too.

Is this worthy of blogger traffic? Well, maybe. If there's interest in life aside from money, maybe.

What product am I able to affiliate with?

The Hewlett Packard HP33s scientific calculator.

I write programs for it.

I love the calculator. I have three of them because I can't fit all my programs on one.

But what I do with it you cannot. Unless you buy a copy of my programs. And they're not for sale.
So if I write expansively about my programs, you're not going to be able to check them out. What commercial purpose does that serve? I don't see it.

So this is not a blog like other blogs.

But if a man's word is to be valued. Then i have some to offer.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

covert organizations

Since a national government must provide the substrate in which omniterest exists, it necessarily must have functionality in all the aspects of creating and maintaining domains of interest, including the repulsive force effect in the median. This fact implies that every government is master at producing covert operations on various scales. Though the proof is not easy to imagine for me, I have a sense that every covert organization in the world operates with the blessing, knowledge, and assistance of one or another government somewhere, and certainly every government is well arrayed with secret layers, though this we already knew. So it follows that all terrorist organizations have national government benefactors somewhere in the world.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

elaborating the boundary between interest and exterest

Returning to the discussion of the generalization of interest to include exterest:

Anything a person does is by definition inside his interest. the only way to introterest what is exterest is by calculation, not interaction. This is true for r, the radius of the domain of interest, being much greater than delta r, the width of the boundary, so that delta r can be modeled as zero. interior to the boundary a certain type of interaction occurs, in some ways like inside, in some ways like outside.

Everything I have said so far about omniterest, or the union of interest and exterest, of a person can be said equally of a corporation, which includes universities. however, omniterest of persons and corporations depend on a certain substrate which is provided by a nation, so omniterest is not also true of nations.

An omniteresting entity which has in its domain of interest a phenomenon whose discovery would invoke events undesirable to the entity would maintain interior to its boundary repulsive effects for all outside entities. Once inside the boundary, free access everywhere inside is assumed.

All boundaries are considered to have a nonzero thickness, therefore we must elaborate terms for the boundary. At this juncture we note the correspondence of omniterest with the morphology of cells of plants, which have two layers at their boundary also. We will not use plant cell terms. instead we will call these the inner membrane and the outer membrane.

We will also be careful to refer to the region between membranes as the median, and to refer to the whole edifice of inner membrane, median, and outer membrane as the boundary.

We will measure the radius of a body of interest as the distance between the center and the outer membrane. All bodies of interest are assumed to be spherical. when speaking of the boundary we may refer to the distance between it and the center as the radius of the body, but this is only approximate and the approximation is worse the thicker the median is. In some cases the median may constitute nearly the whole interest body.

We used the term periterest previously to refer to the region near the boundary, inperiterest being just inside the boundary and experiterest being just outside it. Now these terms have to be clarified, namely, that experiterest concerns the region just outside the outer membrane and inperiterest concerns the region just inside the inner membrane, while periterest includes both of these and this necessarily does not include the median. When the median is modeled as being of zero thickness, then inperiterest is the region just inside it and experiterest is the region just outside it.

A blog is a representation of the whole interest body, both boundary and interior, but it is located, like all public phenomena, in the median. It serves as a means of producing introterest upon this representation, causing exterest to migrate inward in that representation, and, by means of certain keys in the blog, allow movement of people's interest to flow from the actual median, where the whole blog is, into the interior of the actual interest body where the actual person abides.

At the very center of the actual interest body, almost as minute as the nucleus of an atom is inside its electron shell, is a wholly different type of interest nature, namely, the viscera of the actual person. only the person himself and his lover are so profoundly interested in the person that these phenomena have an interesting quality, despite their indelicacies. more about this could be said, but indelicacy forbids here.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

They asked me what I wanted to do for a living.

When they initially made me First, some lady asked me what I wanted to do for a living. I said fine arts. Ok, great. So I go all out to master drawing in starbucks stores, get the show up, and nobody buys anything. And before that I get a show of oils at Truman College and nobody buys anything there. Why the hell did they ask me what field I was going into if it makes no difference to them that they know that, and they don't immediately back me up with encouraging crowd control when I make some progress? Ok, so you say, that's two shows. you cant expect results from just two shows. Yeah, two shows. These are the beachhead. You don't get a whole lot of these things. And when you don't get monetary rewards, you are not a success. You cant get married. You don't make a mark. What possibly could I have done better? And then there's this issue of my signature. I get this psychic-mentor insistence that I work on a slow handed signature as if my signature isn't ok the way it is. Why the hell waste the contact time, such as those things are, on an issue that to me is unnecessary. My signature is fine. Slow fast, its all the same. I worked on my signature intensely when i was doing oils. I have a dynamite signature. What the hell is going on with this guy telling me to work on my signature. Why not use the contact time to advise me on my asking price? That's what i really need. That, they let go completely, ignoring it, consigning me to no sales. So here I am penniless, turning 58 soon, and without a love relationship. It tell you it stinks.

Nobody wants me to succeed.

I remember sitting in a Starbucks working on a drawing of the interior and being aware of an overwhelming feeling that nobody cared what I was doing, didn't want me to learn anything about drawing, wasn't going to follow up on anything I did, and in general found the notion that I was doing my best to be a good artist totally ludicrous. I couldn't maintain my focus. And this wasn't a temporary feeling. It was with me constantly. How the hell am I supposed to be a success when this kind of nonsense is going on. Sorry, but I don't accept the Mafia's pronouncement that I haven't done my part. I got the show at a different Starbucks, despite all this opposition, and then nobody bought anything. I dont know. Seems like they're not backing me up when I do make an advance. What the hell is wrong with them?

Mafia information failure

The mafia, of all entities, needed to know I saw the fire of moses. I didn't know when they annointed me that they needed to know it and they of course had no way of knowing unless I told them, and they don't consult with me. Subsequently, the information got lost. As a result, my entire administration has been characterized by anticipation by the Mafia of a great performance based on no such experience, rather than anticipation of a once in three thousand year performance or greater. Sixteen years has been a waste, and now old age has set in. I suppose it's nobody's fault, but it's damn infuriating.

Monday, December 1, 2008

driving traffic to one's blog, interest and exterest

It occurs to me that English could do better for me talking about the process of driving traffic to my blog.

If someone is not interested in my blog, I call that exterest. He's interested in a lot of things, but they all happen to be other than my blog, insofar as he knows anything at all about it. So it's exterest, interest referenced to be outside my domain.

But if he is interested in things that happen to be near the border between my blog and the outside of my blog, I call that periterest--interest near the border. Further, inperiterest would be interest just inside the border, and experiterest would be interest just outside the border. The activities devoted to turning exterest into interest I would call introteresting, especially the case of turning experiterest into inperiterest, presumably the easiest because only small things keep it from happening, although the two are like night and day, experiterest may be near to being interested in my blog, but it's still absolutely not interested, just as much as somebody who is light years away from being interested.

Interest in my blog that is deep and unlikely to diminish i would call profundterest, near the center of the matter of my blog in interest.

I think this puts talk of blog traffic on a firmer talking foundation.

What are the properties of introteresting behavior? This is a fundamental question in addressing the problem of driving traffic to a blog.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

religions and irrelevance, in and outside

Negatives and irrelevance are over time put on a ledger in a religion so that process leads to the elimination of those pesky negatives. But outside the religion there is no understanding of this process because it is not experienced first hand, and so, without a proper ledger, things that are accounted manageably inside the religion, are accounted as having gross negatives. It's just accounting.

So while terrorism is negative to its victims, to its practicioners the stakes are accounted within a ledger constituting a world-view that is completely different, ending in a way of reconciling irrelevance into relevance and negative into positive. one's view of history is different. one's schedule of world progress is different. But the accounting can be learned by anyone. It's all a matter of synergies--the multiplication of economic values.

anthropocentrism

Homo sapiens individuals are fond of reciting the view that they are superior to all other species. certainly they are one of the more populous species of the past few thousand years. I would like to offer the contrary view. Homo sapiens is making the most of a competitive advantage over some other species, an advantage which is temporary and which does not extend to superiority over all other species on a limitless time scale.

As a result, however, of this belief that they are superior, which can be called its anthropocentrism, homo sapiens loses its place as a member of all its other divisional levels, up to kingdom, preferring instead to label all those species in all those shared divisions as vastly inferior. they may be doing this because they have never witnessed the extinction of a whole division or phylum, and so take a myopic posture relative to the survival of all of the various divisions. Or it may be they have a pathological leadership structure. this is the more likely explanation since war remains a regular habit for them. Consequently, they do not recognize upper ranks of other species, since their own, present company being excludable, do not have sufficient independence to recognize species-independent mastery.

It's a matter of what one does with his time once he becomes one of the elite of the species. Does he spend it solidifying his advantage over the rest of the species, or does he spend it learning his biological environment.

rich man/camel quote by Jesus

The quote by Jesus is "It is harder for a rich man to get into the kingdom of heaven than for a camel to get through the eye of a needle."

A man who is extremely rich has dealt with a world of relevant values, weeding out all the irrelevant ones rather than creating an adaptation for keeping irrelevance straight and keeping track of its synergies that result in multiplication of irrelevant values, leading to appearance of negative relevant values, so that further multiplication allows these negative values to become positive values--a negative times a negative yields a positive. The rich man never learns how to do this and consequently is totally lacking in spiritual values. This of course is the textbook case and rarely does it fit reality. Irrelevance is hard to weed out, even though it is harder to reconcile it, and usually everybody gets a little taste of the irrelevance of doing good.

on God/Caesar quote from Jesus

The quote from Jesus is "Render unto Caesar what is Caesar's. Render unto God what is God's." I read this to be a straight application of the orthogonal relationship between relevant and irrelvant values. Caesar's values, the relevant ones, do not affect the ledger for God's values, the irrelevant ones, since they lie along a different coordinate axis. You can have responsibilities in each tender. Discharging one does not reduce the debt in the other. Of course this is not the whole story. It deals with the purely additive properties of relevant, or real, and irrelevant, or imaginary, values, not the multiplicative ones that produce a negative when two irrelevant, or imaginary, values are multiplied.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

sudoku16

I have produced a solution from scratch for a sudoku 16, the 16x16 analog of the 9x9 sudoku commonly seen in the papers. I used my own character set of 16 characters. I think it would have been harder using hexadecimal--0-9 plus A-F.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

irrelevance and the square root of minus one

It seems to be little appreciated that much of what goes on in the lives of "spiritual people", from the common church goer to Jesus himself, is much more rational, even calculative, than is given credit for. I was musing over this and happened to reflect on the possibility that the term for the square root of minus one, imaginary, is not as linguistically appropriate as the term "irrelevant". In the complex number plane, where real and imaginary values are graphed orthogonally, an imaginary value is quite plainly irrelevant to values on the real axis--it does not add in and can be componentally disassociated from the real values. Imaginary is not a measurable concept. Irrelevant is.

What if all the considerations present in a life viewed as irrelevant were actually just as calculative as the considerations present in a life viewed as relevant. When would we notice the effects of multiplication of two values that are irrelevant to get a product that is negative and relevant? There never having been a ledger sheet for irrelevance, all the calculations involving irrelevance are out of control except for the traditional lessons of spirituality, a largely trial and error process. it is easy to see how negatives to relevance, as well as negatives to irrelevance, could develop quite naturally. Jesus, and all prophets, have a hell of a time with the establishment. They're always considered negative by a great number of people. I am not saying this is incorrect. It is correct, but I am proposing that it's more understandable than has been thought.

It may very well be that we are missing a lot of economically important information in the economy by not incorporating irrelevance on ledgers and in our money system.

The creation of a profit from manufacture of a product occurs because the total spent on materials and processes is exceeded by the saleable value of the manufactured good. This is called a synergy. The sum is greater than the parts. But what I take it is happening is that addition of the inputs is not where the synergy comes from. It comes from their multiplication.

So anytime a product is profitable we can pretty much expect that there is a multiplication of relevant values involved in its manufacture, somewhere on a ledger. But if just one irrelevant value gets mixed in with all the relevant values in the multiplication, the net result becomes irrelevant. And if two irrelevant values get involved, the net result is negative. For this reason companies watch very carefully to weed out irrelevance from the workplace. But if irrelevance were monetized, it could be ledgered and the size of the economy would be doubled, on first principles. There would no longer be any fear of irrelevance because it would be steered by accounting into net positive relevant values.

Somewhat murky, I'm afraid, but perhaps you get the picture.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

the videos in the sidebar

The nine videos in the sidebar take the viewer on a tour of my life from 1951 to 2002, and there are too many highlights to mention.

Friday, November 21, 2008

a world where the pinion is lifted

Let us suppose someone or several persons raise the amount of my small happiness, $175,000,000, and put it in an escrow account pending a mutually agreed upon criterion, with a mutually agreed upon time limit, of return of the world economy to regularity and out of crisis. In order for this to have happened, first of all, it must be reasonably established in my blog and other effects that I have enough authority, experience, and science to justify to both sides of the escrow their respective risks in the enterprise of the escrow. While to some the element of science is sufficient in itself to justify such risk, others will need to see a certain type of experience before even examining any claim of science, and still others will need to certify that the proper authority to undertake so responsible an undertaking in fact exists before allowing any protracted presentation of experience. These three elements, then, are posited as all being necessary in due time pursuant to an escrow addressing the pinion.

Having so posited a course given positive appreciation of the pinion, we need to comment on the plausibility of a positive position, from the simple anticipation that it might be argued that claiming to have had a hand in causing the crisis is patently negative and to offer to remove it for a fee is patently extortive. I will argue that the pinion is also a claim that the world economy can be made better by me than it was before the crisis occurred, not just returned to regularity. I will not be able to clarify the decision to cause harm in order to get the world's attention. It is easy to anticipate that a claim that I had the ability to improve the world economy and would anyone like to deposit into an escrow to that end, would not be taken seriously no matter how much authority was behind it, or rather one must say that that kind of authority does not exist at present. Given that no escrow, lacking evidence, is realizable, a demonstration is unavoidable. Given a demonstration, a positive demonstration is not sustainable as it tends to disassociate boundaries of personal volition, whereas a negative demonstration is more sustainable as it has distinct quasi-national qualities that a positive demonstration does not have. These affectations, as they alight here more or perhaps less persuasively, just happen to correspond to the emerging codes which engendered the pinion, and were utterly surprising to me i might add.

This correspondence lends credibility to the enterprise of the pinion for my position. Whether it lends credibility to it for the other position, that of those who deposit into the escrow if this happens, is anyone's guess.

All these deliberations weigh on the choice of small happiness for me by someone and the claimed consequence of return to regularity of the world economy. They establish a base on which to approach the seemingly imaginary enterprise of the choice of large happiness for me by someone to the tune of $7 billion and the claimed consequence of a higher global standard of living, one might say in ignorance of the many dangers of distributive inequalities already pervasive. by for now.

about followers of this blog

I must point out the sidebar feature "followers". Anyone may become a follower to this blog, as one person has already done. You can do this privately or publicly. When you are a follower of a blog your dashboard features a large section devoted to recent posts to blogs you are following. You can add this gadget to your own blog and have followers there. Aide! (Let's dance!)

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

being First

As the part 8 video in the sidebar comments on, I became First in Chicago in 1992.

What does a first person do?

Well, first, he stops trying to become first. He begins finally to make good on all his lifelong promises. So my interpretation of being First was to begin writing a journal. My intent was to cure myself of mental illness. As a result of this, in about 2003, I no longer exhibited symptoms of manic depression, one of my two diagnoses, the other being schizophrenic. The doctor took me off of my medication, Depakote. I continued to take Zyprexa for schizophrenia. Another sign I was done with manic depression was that my blood levels of Depakote were significantly reduced, indicating my system was not using it any more.

This development gave me a much wider sphere of activities, since I no longer had to be collapsing my work schedule because of attacks, my planning could be more comprehensive.

I would never have attempted such a program of self treatment if I had not had the sense of confidence that I had the authority to take on anything I desired.

This is not the end of my mental illness problem. The fact of having a history of being manic depressive is equivalent in the world of employment to the fact of being manic depressive. So i stand a better chance as a freelancer than I do as an employment seeker.

Furthermore, I am still schizophrenic, and that is a much more difficult problem than manic depression. Fortunately, my theory of mental illness gives me an advantage. (See obelisk in the sidebar).

I have a small income as a consultant. I also work as a judge of election. In this way I afford a couple of credit cards.

The plans of any monarch depend on his war chest. He must be time-effective. There are many ways to make money but most of them are fraught with time demands and self-denigration. As a monarch, I prefer to be my own boss.

Being multitalented, I can devote effort to a sequence of things, giving each my full attention.

I was a candidate for public office--Illinois state representative--at the request of the Republican Party, which I have now forsaken in favor of the Democrats. The Republicans didn't thank me when the election was over. I got 2000 votes to my opponent's 20,000, but while the norm in politics is to spend $1 for every one vote one gets, I spent only ten cents.

I began a business as an artist. I decided to learn to do portraits in public of unknowing customers at Starbucks. This I succeeded at--Starbucks held a show of the drawings I did in their store. However, though there was a flood of complimentary remarks on the show, nothing sold, so, after another few months of drawing at other Starbucks locations, I discarded all my work. They weren't commercially valuable.

Now I am developing my pinion of the world economy. It succeeded because I am ecologically situated in greater stability than Homo sapiens, as a result of having been homeless for eight years and finding other ecology units than my own species were able to commerce with me intellectually. While mankind pictures ecology as two tone, man and not-man, I picture it more diversely, and man is not the highest point on the chart. The key is that ranking intensity varies much more than Homo sapiens views it to.

Let's take a break.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

working at Hale Observatories

My next experience with computers was at Hale Observatories in Pasadena, CA. as a summer student. I had worked the previous summer at NASA in Mountain View, CA. and decided to transfer to U.C. Santa Cruz for my second bachelor's degree in physics.

At Hale I was in the solar astronomy department, headed by Bob Howard, with post-doc Barry LaBonte. They gave me responsibility for programming on a project to measure the historic sun's radius from data collected at Big Bear solar observatory. I used a Ratheon computer and worked from punched cards and mag tape.

The observatory offices where I worked were right in Pasadena. The 200-inch Hale Reflector was up in the mountains.

The library at the offices was very nice. The librarian gave me a book to read about the observatory's founder, George Ellery Hale. He was a Chicagoan. The reason she gave me that book was that she knew I was mentally ill and Hale had been mentally ill and really struggled with it. He kept seeing this little man who would torment him--a complete phantasm.

When the scientific paper came out on my project, written by Bob and Barry, I got mentioned in a footnote on the first page that said I did competent work. This was actually a nice compliment.

I enjoyed the historic setting at Hale and the people were very congenial. I went to lunch most days with a foursome of Barry, a programmer, and a tech. We would eat at the diner around the corner and had really friendly conversation.

Once a week there was a lunchtime colloquium given by various persons on different astronomical topics. One was given by Allen Sandage, an internationally noted astronomer.

Monday, November 17, 2008

my background in computers

My first experience with computers was just out of high school. I got a summer job, as a good physics student, at the Fermi National Accelerator Laboratory in Batavia, IL, which was in its beginning stages of formation and hadn't even broken ground yet for the accelerator.

My boss was a physicist, Dr. David F. Sutter, from Cornell. Dave taught me the basics of circuits, and of logic. I was his only student. He would tutor me in his office. My own space was in an adjacent butler building, or large warehouse type structure. It was large and so was my space. Dave gave me a project to build a circuit, a high frequency clock. He stepped me through it at first and I finished it off. Then we debugged it together until it worked. I managed the lab supplies, getting requisitions for all the stuff Dave wanted us to have, getting some of it from the lab stock house, and ordering some of it from mail order catalogs, Allied and some other house. I learned to use the shop in the lab, drill press, band saw, bending machine, punch, etc. The manager of the shop was Bill Carter, a sturdy, unfrilled but warm and fatherly man, and he was very helpful. Another Cornell man came to work with us, Howie Pfeffer. He amazed me with his ability to debug quickly things I thought were real complicated. It always involved the oscilloscope because everything we did involved high frequencies.

Then I was put to work on my own project, a comparator and interrupt of a small minicomputer. I designed the circuit, with clear steering by dave, built it, and scouted out the computer interrupt. To do that I had to learn to program the computer in its own machine language. It was a Variandata 620i computer, with a language called DAS, for data assembly system. Another physicist, Chuck Schmidt, taught me how to run and program it. It was located in another building, supported by air pressure alone for some technical reason. You entered through a pressure-maintaining door.

i was thrilled with the work involving the computer. I picked it up real fast. One of the electronic technicians told me he was really impressed with how fast I picked it up.

There was a teletype terminal that I typed the programs with. It produced a paper tape that was fed into another input. The computer had switches on its frame that enabled you to step through your programs to debug them. These were called sense switches.

Then in the back there was an interface for the interrupt. My circuit had to connect to it there, and there were eight switches on my circuit. these created eight bits, zero or one each, that when the computer clock got to that number in eight bits, it was interrupted. This process was necessary to enable accelerator control to divert local control stations from their routine operations and have them do something special that came up, which it might in such a large machine. The accelerator was to be four miles in circumference.

That's all for this post.

while I'm waiting

While I'm waiting for action on my pinion, which I'm sure the general sentiment is that it will be when hell freezes over, I must advance on my business of computer consulting.

I was thinking about it and I believe there needs to be a clear difference made in my approach to people who, in the one case, want me to execute things for them and aren't interested in learning how to do much themselves, and in the other case, want me to teach them how to do things.

I would call the first case, where I execute things for them, a shadow service. In this case the client is a person totally without delusions about their computer skills, recognizes nevertheless the computer is a dandy thing, and wants to cash in on it any way he or she can. So he or she becomes a shadow sitting beside me and I become a shadow sitting beside him or her. Between us goes on all kinds of communication until we get the job done. But at the end of the session, the client is no different a person than he or she was at the beginning. I enter like a shadow and I exit like one. And he or she appears to me like a shadow too, except that in the process I have learned a lot about the person's needs and limitations of terminology and knowledge of computer processes.

The other type of client, who wants me to teach him or her how to do things on the computer, I will call simply a learner client. In this case really the door is wide open, anything is discussable, and the wider we set the agenda the more satisfied the client will eventually be. This of course requires also that my knowledge is much greater than the client's, and for many computer users this will just not be the case, and I will not be of use to him or to her. I am not a technician. I am a well-rounded scientist, and some people will find that useful and impressive, but some people will anticipate pretty much what that entails in terms of computer knowledge, and pass on it.

Next, a discussion of my background in computers.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

the functional elements of the pinion

As a result of my study of mental illness I arrived at an understanding of life. Initially, this was expressed in terms of logic and was not very well elaborated. Lately, however, I have made some progress on the theory, found a common sense interpretation, and determined a very simple expression of the theory in terms of characters which I invented in 1983, my own language you might say, except that needing none for myself, I put no sounds to the characters, and, more importantly, do not use them as words, rather as numbers. much more than this I will not tell, nor probably could I since my characters aren't on the keyboard and I haven't yet attempted to create that functionality. However, I will tell what I have done in simple functional terms. I have expressed life's options at the most fundamental level, and these are threefold. Zero, life gets more complicated. One, life gets more regular. Two, life gets more fulfilling. That having been done, I have started a countdown on a calculator with a program I wrote. When the countdown ends, I make a determination: Am I not happy, small happy, or large happy. My inscription on my expression of life's options then will correspond to my happiness. Not happy, i write life gets more complicated. Small happy, I write life gets more regular. Large happy, I write life gets more fulfilling. That is a simplified explanation of the pinion. After the first countdown ended, I was not happy, and I wrote life's option of getting more complicated. Then in a few days the crisis on wall street broke. The countdown has ended again and I am still not happy and wrote accordingly. We will see.

a big decision

I made a big decision a year or so ago. I live in a psychiatric nursing home and face enormous obstacles to getting a job. So I decided that instead of mounting an operation to get one, I would mount an operation to mediate with the universe and bring a solution to my problem of living decently and having heirs by acting in such a concerted manner and with such a commanding understanding of life and universe that the solution would present itself spontaneously. That was the decision. Now we will see if it was effective.

my role in history

You will find in the sidebar videos detailing the course of my life to 2002 a statement by me that I saw a fire very similar to the fire seen by Moses. Now there is and has been for many centuries a preoccupation of many people with anticipating a second coming of the Christ. So clearly I am not answering that call or any of the associated things that people expect of such a second coming. I am not the messiah and I am not a deliverer in that sense. I mention the incident of me seeing Moses's fire only to assist the interpretation of my statements and actions. Anyone wishing to claim to be Jesus coming back is going to have a hard time substantiating that. The Jews have a checklist for a messiah. The Christians have a more fuzzy concept and I can't imagine what a true messiah would go through, either to get to the point of achieving messianic deeds or to get recognition by society as the messiah, certainly a difficult thing to do given the hashing over by Christians of contemporary life as a ground for a messiah to enter. Being a second example of whatever it was that Moses was is in a sense much easier. No one expects a second Moses and there is absolutely no literature or buzz about one. So I am left free to determine for myself what to do about having seen what Moses and no one else saw. The moment I saw it I realized that my life was different from then on. Exactly how I didn't have any idea. That was in 1992. It is now sixteen years later. The videos in the sidebar cover only up to 2002. I have mulled over many parallels between Moses and myself, now that I have some reason to do so. Some things are not parallel. He was raised the son of pharaoh. I was born and raised the son of a lady's hairdresser. He was a jew. I am an atheist, though I have been at times a Christian and a Buddhist and have had some ties to Yoga. The parallels are of interest only if one finds my claim to holding the world economy in my control at least minimally reasonable, and that being at question I will leave those matters to some other time. I have other things to discuss and I will close now.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

isis

My bureau is the zerobureau.

Its semblance to homo sapiens is isistic.

outside
money dictates
man conforms
struggle to control money

inside
man dictates
money conforms
struggle to control man

sheerness of the curtain is crucial

Monday, November 10, 2008

escrow

The only sensible way to actualize payment for my release of the pinion on the world economy is by an escrow, in which payment is deposited by some party who feels the pain of the crisis, in the amount I choose, which is $175,000,000 for simple restoration to normal, and $7,000,000,000 for establishment of a substantial improvement of man's, and life's, fate, this amount to be yielded to me upon agreed upon satisfaction of a measure of fulfillment of my claim of control, whether the small one or the large one. Sounds ridiculous. Test my theory of mental illness first. If you find that false I don't expect you to believe I control the pinion.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

the nature of the pinion

Having set down a claim that the current financial crisis is in my power to end, it must be set down some description of the connection between my effects and the effects of the universe. (Why be timid, right?)
There is in the obelisk at left (update: obelisk removed because it is in doubt.) an implication that to derive this explanation of mental illness some science is necessary. No one will venture to ask what such science might be unless they find the explanation credible. I am not going to reveal the science, but the explanation might be found reasonable and some may wonder what the science is. I will say that it is sufficient to describe all life in terms of physics.

So being mentally ill, needing to figure it out, and succeeding, I am the sole Homo sapiens keeper of a physical description of life sufficient to begin or end a global financial crisis. I didn't actually decide to cause it. I decided to cause a negative result for life of unpredictable magnitude, a cause which I can reverse or worsen at my option, which decision on my part is communicated to Homo sapiens and they allowed to do as they please toward me, which to now is as a draftee into mental illness with all the misery there attached. Now, however, there is the matter of my decision to act one way or the alternate way which may or may not relate to global financial conditions.

Friday, November 7, 2008

my day at S.C.O.R.E.

Thursday I had a conference at the service corps of retired executives. Marvin listened to my business plan and opined that there's no money in it, I'll never make a living doing it. He may be right. He suggested I go ahead with it, no harm in that, but it's a hobby, not a business. I don't know, I think there will always be people who aren't technically inclined who could benefit from what a computer can do and just need someone to do it for them, provided it isn't too expensive. Maybe that's the key factor--the cost. If i can't charge enough to hire people to do it then he's right it isn't a business. I need to make enough to afford to get married, but not immediately. There's a lot of inertia I have to overcome first. Mental illness has not been kind to me. On the other hand, I have the time, best to use it to come up with some plans to make a living. I don't like the idea of being employed by someone. Too much vacuous chitchat involved in it. We'll see....

Saturday, November 1, 2008

inaugural post

Welcome one and all! It is with pride and determination I begin this enterprise, having come to it through no small feat of longevity. Many is the time I have been near death's door, pitting my acumen and wits against foe, adversity, hunger, cold, exposure, enmity, misunderstanding, and any number of other similar obstacles to simply getting to the next day ready to do it all again. Well, it's been a trip. Now I'm ready to launch into my endeavor to do what others care not to, because they are too concerned with compromise. If I had been willing to compromise, I would have become a hack like everyone else. Not that I am unaware of the top of the curve, either. I know there are exceptions out there. I saw them in college at Yale. But my position is different, even from them. It is not every milenium that a human sets eyes upon the fire of Moses. If my reading is correct, the last time it was Moses. Then it happened in 1992, here in Chicago--I saw it myself with my own two eyes. Of course I shudder to think of it. The portents are not good for certain dominant entities, just as was the case in Moses's time. I would not be honest if I said I had nothing to do with the Wall Street crisis of the past month. And the end is not in sight. Now I am in a different situation from when I was adrift alone, facing those things of which I just spoke. The tables have turned. And information is flowing in the other direction. Whether the money will too, that's anyone's guess. But the imbalance of resources, between me and the rulers, is now being reduced. Moses wanted the Jews freed. That was his path. Mine is different. I want some resources of my own. and when I get them, by any means legal, I will remove my lock on the economy. It's that simple.

Now I will say a little about the easiest way for me to be given resources. I am not a slacker. I like to work. I have a second B.A. from U.C.S.C. in physics and I am able to serve computer users less skilled than myself as a consultant. I will sit at your side at a computer and get it to do what you want, for $20 an hour. That's pretty cheap. I have taken out some ads in free online classifieds. We'll see if I get any emails from prospective customers.

That should do it for getting this ship assail. I hope we can have a free discussion of anything you want. I'm a pretty good conversationalist, and, despite the grim situation, and my part in it, I'm a pretty compassionate kinda fella. maybe that's my problem.

til next time...