Sunday, December 21, 2008

my Roman blood

Although my family didnt know it when I was growing up, I and my siblings are Roman. Establishing Roman ancestry is not an easy thing. In England it is very prized to be of Roman blood, however, again, it is not easy to verify and many people attempt to boost their prestige there by claiming to be Roman without any supporting documentation. the Romans of course at one time occupied England.

The reason I believe I can claim to be Roman is that when I was doing work as a model for artists I did a job at Boston University and the teacher commented to the class that this model, me, had a Roman head. Now you can dispute the authenticity of this reference, and I will never play it up as if my life depended on it, but as a point of departure I think it's pretty solid. Art teachers have training in all the civilizations in history, especially Rome, and I think they would be assumed to be able to tell a Roman head from a non Roman head.

The reason I mention England is that one of our ancestors names was King. I assume this line originated in England. I don't assume the first of this line was a monarch type king because from my genealogical research I know that the name King came about often when someone was an actor playing the part of a king, and took that name subsequently.

Being Roman, I am granted kinship with the Italians, and being their kin I was accepted into their elite ranks as first, because of something I did in 1992, and I presume because all my other life details were acceptable.

The story of my becoming first I tell in the sidebar video titled, "first".

might get a computer

As you may know I use the Chicago Public Library to access the internet as I have no computer of my own. I will be coming into a little money now and I may decide to invest in a mini computer. This will enable me to spend more time at my blog. As of now I have to use extreme selectivity in writing, down to every word, because I have so much more I want to write than I have time for. If I get the computer this will radically change the tenor of my blog. We will see.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

a blog reference to relevance, irrelevance, and Jesus

I found a blog with a post about relevance, irrelevance, and Jesus. it is here. It's a pretty traditional discussion, with some cross castigation. I can't say as I find it personally useful, but I thought I would give any readers a chance to look at it.

Friday, December 19, 2008

knowledge

This is a knowledge blog. It's obvious from a look around other blogs that they are generally diary blogs. I don't happen to be a time filler. I have evolved a world view. Time for me is what the world does in response to my world view. Some follow me. Most do not. They all feel my movements.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Moses and the burning bush, glenellynboy and the burning building

The story of how I got there is too long to tell now. but there I was. I sighted from my outstretched hand to the building across the street. A fire emerged from the building. It danced around the surface of the building, moving in an intelligent way, investigating the surface, the windows, the walls. It lasted for a number of seconds, then disappeared back into the building. There was no voice. The nature of the fire was variegated. It was compressed into a small linearity. It had a sparkling nature. It was fairly bright, about the intensity of a 200 watt light bulb at the same distance. The story of how I got from there to here is also too long to tell now.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

why in mental illness the inner membrane collapses but the outer one does not

I have to show how my theory predicts that the inner membrane collapses under mental illness but the outer membrane doesn't. Well, there is a connection. I can't show the details because it's all in my own character set which doesn't type, but in general it is that the phenomenon which brings about mental illness is gas exchange in breathing. And since the fetus in the womb doesn't breathe air, the membrane that forms at that time is not vulnerable--the outer one. After birth breath begins, so the membrane that forms then--the inner one--is vulnerable.

Monday, December 15, 2008

another author's different meaning for "exterest"

I have found an interesting (!) post somewhere that coins and uses exterest differently than I do. The post is here. This author discusses some of the things that seem to be true of interest to one general degree or another. None of it directly bears on my discussion.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

mental illness, interest, and exterest--a special case

Mentally ill people, and I speak from experience, have a terrible condition in omniterest. Their entire sphere of interest is equal to a giant median because the inner membrane is collapsed to the very center of the sphere, leaving a median whose thickness is equal to the radius of the sphere. As a result, whenever other people enter the details of the person's interest, no matter how close to the center they get, the nature of the space there is exactly a median, and has properties of the domain outside the sphere and properties of the domain inside the sphere. The inside, however, being contracted completely inside the collapsed inner membrane, is terribly pathological and even though it may be controlled by medication, the medications available only serve to relax this condition and do not resurrect the inner membrane. All throughout the volume of the mentally ill person's sphere of interest, outsiders, because this region is a median in nature, will involve themselves in analysis of the person and will decide whether to remain interested or to depart, just as happens in normal persons' medians, but in the mentally ill this is the dynamic throughout the entire region of interest. There is no real inside where others want to explore at liesure and in comfort, without any pressing urge to depart.

the formation of the two membranes of the boundary between interest and exterest

The formation of both the inner and outer membranes, of the boundary between interest and exterest, must be an organic process, since we are talking about people's acquired capacity to interest others and that happens as a natural consequence of our metabolisms. How does it happen that the boundary between ourselves and others, which we think of as our "identity" out of the accumulated paradigm of mankind, now superceded by this picture of omniterest which I am promoting here, takes a two membrane form rather than a one membrane form? Isn't identity of normal people unitary? Well, the answer would seem to me to be that, one, the two membranes act in concert and are not two identities, and, two, that it would seem reasonable to conjecture that the timing of the formation of the membranes is that the outer one begins to form at conception and is constructed blind to the world during the time of pregnancy, the universe being guessed at through the medium of the mother's experience as impressed upon the fetus's experience, then at birth the construction of this membrane, though it continues, undergoes a dramatic change in nature because the intermediary mother is gone. at the same time, at birth, the construction of the inner membrane begins, and that one is directly based on the perceptions of the person himself. from the moment of birth, the essential atom expands the size of the inner membrane, pushing the outer membrane to expand just outside it, so that the child tries to get the most out of the mother's nurturing nature which permeates the home and the universe outside it, as qualified by the participation of the father, however that happens to occur.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

terest, the undifferentiated potential for interest or exterest

A sphere of interest is a representation of a function of information, rather than a representation of information itself. The information which is the argument of the function certainly has a distribution which itself is a function of physical space--two memory locations in a computer have different locations in space and both contain specific information--but this information is not modeled by the picture I have given of interest and exterest, nor is its distribution in space. the persons who populate, so to speak, each sphere of interest, produce the effect of a setting off of a region of information as argument which does stimulate interest, and a region of information which does not, relative to a motile atom of essence, as I am somewhat archaically calling it, of any particular person. suffice it to say that information produces an extensiveness which produces this effect, irrespective of its nature in any other sense.

We have used the term "omniterest" to refer to the union of the region of interest with the region of exterest. It is dependent for its significance on the reduction of references to one center of a sphere of interest at a time. Omniterest may effectively summon up as its referent all of the space we are discussing, but it does so with the necessary division of that space into interest and exterest, and therefore it assumes one or another center of a sphere of interest is invoked to give that division meaning. We will refer to the space which holds this omniterest as terest, the undifferentiated potential for interest or exterest.

Friday, December 12, 2008

variation of size of boundary between exterest and interest, and the interspherical region

It is hard to avoid the conviction that the size of the sphere of interest varies greatly from person to person. We can conclude this for one thing because the details which constitute the interest aspect of a person certainly grow in number from birth to the prime of life, so from that standpoint alone people have different sizes of the sphere of interest just as people have different ages. but more than this, some people, for one reason or another, tend to accumulate details capable of interesting others at a great rate while others do so at a slight rate, thus adding to the variability of the size of people's spheres of interest.

It is inherent in the picture of the sphere separating exterest from interest that it separates the phenomena of on the one hand, experiencing details as interesting, and on the other, experiencing them as not interesting. Same details. different response. Essentially, we ignore the interest of the person himself in the details of himself. That is really just another form of detail, and as such it has a place somewhere in the sphere. the picture is of the dynamic of the movement of peoples' interest here and there, and the effect of this interpretation is that each person has an atomlike essence whose location relative to these spheres of interest of everyone represents what he is interested in at any given moment. It is exactly as if within the sphere of interest is generated a motile body of dimensions much smaller than the sphere, which can travel anywhere. It can travel inside one's own sphere, into the space outside its own sphere where it has some relation to other spheres, and can make a decision to enter someone else's sphere. When this essense atom is in the space between spheres it must prevent itself from entering where it might be unwelcome, and it must analyze spheres for their potential interesting nature, all done with a much less dense flux of information than when it is inside some one or other sphere.

This is quite a lot and we will take a pause.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Mastercard endorsement

I have had a Mastercard credit card now for over a year. It is my business credit card. I find it a valuable part of my business operation, perhaps the most valuable, other than my drawing talent. The concept of having a line of credit, so that I can be aggressive today beyond my cash assets, and pay for it tomorrow, is a very sensible way to do business, both for me and for the credit card company and the bank that pays my charges. The simplicity of the card over cash, which entails keeping track of very many individual objects of coins and notes, is a strategic business vehicle in itself. I am always more than glad to pay the interest each month, knowing how this expense gives me value in the way I live and do business.

VISA credit card endorsement

I have had a VISA credit card for over a year now. I would say it is responsible for a large part of my security today, in dollar terms. Without it, my health would be poorer because I would not have eaten as well. Though all my available cash goes to make the monthly minimum payments, I have calculated this part of my budget over the next year and it looks like i am in ship shape.I get three meals a day at my nursing home. These are on the order of 70% eatable. While this is a problem, it is not as big a problem as being homeless, which I was for eight years. So you can see why i say the VISA card has been good for me. it's not a grant. I have to pay it all back eventually, plus interest of course. But in my line of work, that is, being the first of the chicago mafia, every moment in the present, spent on pivotal details, means a whole lot more high functioning structure in my world than would exist otherwise, and thereby the means of paying for the present use of those funds will more than likely be ready at hand.

I also have a Mastercard for business.

Monday, December 8, 2008

claiming victory in barack obama's election

As the sidebar video entitled, "first", discusses, my first public comment that I wanted to join the mafia, stated to two police officers, made note that I wanted to heal relations between blacks and whites. Ever since then I have acted consistent with that expression and with a substantial but unaccustomed apprehension of the powers at my call to accomplish it. Foremost was the decision to maintain public silence on this issue so as not to attract attention to it as a policy of the chicago mafia, an approach which seemed to me more in keeping with the mafia way of doing business, most notably in its "code of silence". I kept to this decision despite one gang leader's urges that I go public with the policy.

During this policy's duration I made two $20 contributions to black organizations, and told no one except that one of them, to the United Negro College Fund, I allowed to send a confidential announcement of to the assistant administrator of the nursing home where I live. She never spoke of receiving it, which is perfectly within the policy of silence. The other organization I sent money to was a New York, help the homeless who want to work, group.

My own writing, shown to no one, approached the issue from a general political openness, allowing both a partisanship with racists, for what I saw as reasonable grounds, which I was personally able to do as the son of a racist, and a partisanship with liberals, which my mother prepared me to do quite effectively.

As a result of this policy, and because I took the heat of circumstances without declaring I was first of Chicago, except to a few close associates, I can safely say that I was the reason Barack Obama's greatness was perceived by the American electorate in 2008.

opposition to my actions as First of Chicago's Mafia

During the past 16 years, I have held the belief that the opposition I was sensing to my actions as First of the Mafia in Chicago was wrong, that it was a manifestation of a wrong perception of me on the part of someone who should have known better. It is my updated view, today, that the opposition is not wrong, but must be assumed as a part of being First, and that the thing to do is get on with it. I don't advise people to oppose my actions, however, nor do I wish to take a laissez-faire attitude toward it. On the other hand, I must accept that being First necessarily entails deeply unpopular actions, even among the personnel of the Mafia itself, or else nothing ambitious is being done, no risks are being taken, and nobody's reputation is on the line. From the very beginning, me being First in Chicago, something ambitious was being done, risks were being taken, and somebody's reputation was on the line. So while at the start I was put off by the opposition I felt, now I see better that that is only natural, and a part of the landscape for a position as important as First of the Mafia in Chicago, if one takes it seriously, and how can one not?

This in no way lessens the reasonableness, from its own point of view, of any particular position of opposition to my actions as first, but neither does it substantiate such opposition. Furthermore, the opposition is not expected to diminish just because it gets my blessings, as a certain perspective might put it. But also it may happen that the drag on me of opposition stops being so aggravating as it was before, when I took it as something in need of attention down to the most minute detail.

This development comes in parallel with continuing progress in my home bureau on some major quantitative work which has been slowed up considerably by the opposition of poor comprehension, a condition which seems, with successive rounds of discovery of better ways to express the work, to be, possibly entirely, caused by departures from perfectly expressive form, this being my own responsibility. The perception of the work is rife with imperfections of logic, my own closely held logic and the logic held somewhat less closely which may be more proprietary to the greater universe in which I operate, a universe not normally seen in so personal a way by those who are not mentally ill. It must correspondingly be pointed out, however it may seem that this is an admission of my having pathological symptoms of mental illness, that the work I have done enables me to say that these less closely held logical phenomena have been brought considerably closer and under better control, as a result of my complete theory of mental illness, as partially revealed in the obelisk statement (update: obelisk now removed.) in the sidebar. This is a vast subject and I am not about to leap into it at this time.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

hunger and blogging

I have to say that I am overwhelmed by the difference in wealth between bloggers and myself. It seems everyone else has his own home, lots of paraphenalia, and spends money everywhere he goes, never is hungry. His choice is generally what to buy, not whether to buy. I live on social security. What my nursing home Doesnt take from me is $30 a month. So as I walk by the coffee shops I face the decision whether to use my credit card, already near its limit, because a coffee and pastry would be soooo nice, or suck it up and walk by without going in. All my $30 now goes to card payments. The little bit i earn goes there too.

Is this worthy of blogger traffic? Well, maybe. If there's interest in life aside from money, maybe.

What product am I able to affiliate with?

The Hewlett Packard HP33s scientific calculator.

I write programs for it.

I love the calculator. I have three of them because I can't fit all my programs on one.

But what I do with it you cannot. Unless you buy a copy of my programs. And they're not for sale.
So if I write expansively about my programs, you're not going to be able to check them out. What commercial purpose does that serve? I don't see it.

So this is not a blog like other blogs.

But if a man's word is to be valued. Then i have some to offer.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

covert organizations

Since a national government must provide the substrate in which omniterest exists, it necessarily must have functionality in all the aspects of creating and maintaining domains of interest, including the repulsive force effect in the median. This fact implies that every government is master at producing covert operations on various scales. Though the proof is not easy to imagine for me, I have a sense that every covert organization in the world operates with the blessing, knowledge, and assistance of one or another government somewhere, and certainly every government is well arrayed with secret layers, though this we already knew. So it follows that all terrorist organizations have national government benefactors somewhere in the world.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

elaborating the boundary between interest and exterest

Returning to the discussion of the generalization of interest to include exterest:

Anything a person does is by definition inside his interest. the only way to introterest what is exterest is by calculation, not interaction. This is true for r, the radius of the domain of interest, being much greater than delta r, the width of the boundary, so that delta r can be modeled as zero. interior to the boundary a certain type of interaction occurs, in some ways like inside, in some ways like outside.

Everything I have said so far about omniterest, or the union of interest and exterest, of a person can be said equally of a corporation, which includes universities. however, omniterest of persons and corporations depend on a certain substrate which is provided by a nation, so omniterest is not also true of nations.

An omniteresting entity which has in its domain of interest a phenomenon whose discovery would invoke events undesirable to the entity would maintain interior to its boundary repulsive effects for all outside entities. Once inside the boundary, free access everywhere inside is assumed.

All boundaries are considered to have a nonzero thickness, therefore we must elaborate terms for the boundary. At this juncture we note the correspondence of omniterest with the morphology of cells of plants, which have two layers at their boundary also. We will not use plant cell terms. instead we will call these the inner membrane and the outer membrane.

We will also be careful to refer to the region between membranes as the median, and to refer to the whole edifice of inner membrane, median, and outer membrane as the boundary.

We will measure the radius of a body of interest as the distance between the center and the outer membrane. All bodies of interest are assumed to be spherical. when speaking of the boundary we may refer to the distance between it and the center as the radius of the body, but this is only approximate and the approximation is worse the thicker the median is. In some cases the median may constitute nearly the whole interest body.

We used the term periterest previously to refer to the region near the boundary, inperiterest being just inside the boundary and experiterest being just outside it. Now these terms have to be clarified, namely, that experiterest concerns the region just outside the outer membrane and inperiterest concerns the region just inside the inner membrane, while periterest includes both of these and this necessarily does not include the median. When the median is modeled as being of zero thickness, then inperiterest is the region just inside it and experiterest is the region just outside it.

A blog is a representation of the whole interest body, both boundary and interior, but it is located, like all public phenomena, in the median. It serves as a means of producing introterest upon this representation, causing exterest to migrate inward in that representation, and, by means of certain keys in the blog, allow movement of people's interest to flow from the actual median, where the whole blog is, into the interior of the actual interest body where the actual person abides.

At the very center of the actual interest body, almost as minute as the nucleus of an atom is inside its electron shell, is a wholly different type of interest nature, namely, the viscera of the actual person. only the person himself and his lover are so profoundly interested in the person that these phenomena have an interesting quality, despite their indelicacies. more about this could be said, but indelicacy forbids here.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

They asked me what I wanted to do for a living.

When they initially made me First, some lady asked me what I wanted to do for a living. I said fine arts. Ok, great. So I go all out to master drawing in starbucks stores, get the show up, and nobody buys anything. And before that I get a show of oils at Truman College and nobody buys anything there. Why the hell did they ask me what field I was going into if it makes no difference to them that they know that, and they don't immediately back me up with encouraging crowd control when I make some progress? Ok, so you say, that's two shows. you cant expect results from just two shows. Yeah, two shows. These are the beachhead. You don't get a whole lot of these things. And when you don't get monetary rewards, you are not a success. You cant get married. You don't make a mark. What possibly could I have done better? And then there's this issue of my signature. I get this psychic-mentor insistence that I work on a slow handed signature as if my signature isn't ok the way it is. Why the hell waste the contact time, such as those things are, on an issue that to me is unnecessary. My signature is fine. Slow fast, its all the same. I worked on my signature intensely when i was doing oils. I have a dynamite signature. What the hell is going on with this guy telling me to work on my signature. Why not use the contact time to advise me on my asking price? That's what i really need. That, they let go completely, ignoring it, consigning me to no sales. So here I am penniless, turning 58 soon, and without a love relationship. It tell you it stinks.

Nobody wants me to succeed.

I remember sitting in a Starbucks working on a drawing of the interior and being aware of an overwhelming feeling that nobody cared what I was doing, didn't want me to learn anything about drawing, wasn't going to follow up on anything I did, and in general found the notion that I was doing my best to be a good artist totally ludicrous. I couldn't maintain my focus. And this wasn't a temporary feeling. It was with me constantly. How the hell am I supposed to be a success when this kind of nonsense is going on. Sorry, but I don't accept the Mafia's pronouncement that I haven't done my part. I got the show at a different Starbucks, despite all this opposition, and then nobody bought anything. I dont know. Seems like they're not backing me up when I do make an advance. What the hell is wrong with them?

Mafia information failure

The mafia, of all entities, needed to know I saw the fire of moses. I didn't know when they annointed me that they needed to know it and they of course had no way of knowing unless I told them, and they don't consult with me. Subsequently, the information got lost. As a result, my entire administration has been characterized by anticipation by the Mafia of a great performance based on no such experience, rather than anticipation of a once in three thousand year performance or greater. Sixteen years has been a waste, and now old age has set in. I suppose it's nobody's fault, but it's damn infuriating.

Monday, December 1, 2008

driving traffic to one's blog, interest and exterest

It occurs to me that English could do better for me talking about the process of driving traffic to my blog.

If someone is not interested in my blog, I call that exterest. He's interested in a lot of things, but they all happen to be other than my blog, insofar as he knows anything at all about it. So it's exterest, interest referenced to be outside my domain.

But if he is interested in things that happen to be near the border between my blog and the outside of my blog, I call that periterest--interest near the border. Further, inperiterest would be interest just inside the border, and experiterest would be interest just outside the border. The activities devoted to turning exterest into interest I would call introteresting, especially the case of turning experiterest into inperiterest, presumably the easiest because only small things keep it from happening, although the two are like night and day, experiterest may be near to being interested in my blog, but it's still absolutely not interested, just as much as somebody who is light years away from being interested.

Interest in my blog that is deep and unlikely to diminish i would call profundterest, near the center of the matter of my blog in interest.

I think this puts talk of blog traffic on a firmer talking foundation.

What are the properties of introteresting behavior? This is a fundamental question in addressing the problem of driving traffic to a blog.