Friday, October 30, 2009

Chicago's elite ready to implement my solution to war without paying me for it

Having published the fact that I have a solution for war, succinctly put in my own writing and kept secure in my possession, which I am willing to share and submit to the test of results provided $7 billion is put into escrow so that I will be paid upon satisfactory performance of the solution, I believe that those who affirm my right to see disposal of my effects in the manner of my choosing will in the very least satisfy themselves that what they can make out of the solution shall not be found taking shape in reality without the payment I ask for being delivered into escrow for payment to me in the event the use of the solution proves successful.

I say this because I have seen preparations being made by the elite of Chicago society to put my solution into effect. They have special access to my personal effects because of the nature of their leadership of Chicago society, and in addition I have yielded upon one occasion to the need for conversation on this topic so that I could hear myself think in more realistic terms than solitude allows, thus giving evidence away to those who make it their business to know the substance of all conversations relevant to the city.

While the elite of Chicago make my life secure by arranging that superior forces do not impinge upon me in opposition without sufficient alert, a benefit of being chosen first in 1992, it is clear that my personal survival, including my potential mates and offspring, is not considered a priority, since my efforts at business have proven for the most part unsuccessful to date. Clearly, my independence is not considered potentially valuable to the elite, which causes me to speculate in general about where the points of difference lie between my values, which my independence would advance, and the values of the elite. At first I wondered if maybe my relative youth and lack of wisdom were the difference. But events have shown that my wisdom is second to none in Chicago. The only explanation is that people differ and values accord with that, with the result that the independence that comes from secure personal survival will displace others' independence. The issue returns to whether I can prevent my solution to war from being used, and dying without heirs will be tantamount to confiscation of my solution without payment. Eventually, the elite will make it possible to use it by discouraging memorialization of my life to any large degree. Those who lionize me, and they exist, are considered by the Chicago elite to be "overawed". I don't think that in light of having a solution to war which they take seriously, by all evidence, they can defend themselves successfully against any claim I might make that their motives are purely competitive, and that this is consistent with them calling my adherents overawed.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

backlash from the pornography industry and my return offensive

There is evidence of a backlash to my post stating that pornography is not in my best interest. I accept the challenge. Let there be a blanket proscription of pornography from all media.

Return to courtship of Crystal Newell

I have been thinking over my decision to terminate my relationship with Crystal Newell after I asked her if she was attracted to me and she said no.

I believe I made a mistake in my decision.

It seems, after reflection, that attraction to you of the girl you are courting is irrelevant. If she goes out on dates with you, you are doing something right, and courship, it seems to me, is a matter of providing the logic, tending the field, and enabling the viscera to fall in place. I just haven't accomplished this last step. If I am assiduous and attentive to her, it should happen. It is a risk. Maybe she never will be attracted to me, and then she certainly wouldn't, and shouldn't, marry me. I think one has to be confident that physical attraction is natural and it is imperfections that prevent it from developing. The logic provides pathways for this to happen, and my own being in touch with my taste, which is clear in its affirmation of this girl's attractiveness, provides the impetus to pursue them, despite repeated frustrations and desperation.

Therefore I have decided to continue to court Crystal, which I don't need to belabor with her since I didn't tell her I broke up with her. I told my roommate and my colleague, Gordon Moen, and I will tell them I have taken her back.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

I place here a request for an escrow of $7 billion for a measure to end all war forever.

I have a new product to be considered by the powers that be. It is a measure that will end war forever. I am asking $7 billion for it. Setting aside the question of credibility, let alone proof, of my measure being able to put an end to war, a serious negotiating state will want to calculate the equivalent capital stock in the present whose interest over time would pay for all anticipated wars engaged in by the negotiating state. Such calculations probably are a fantasy given uncertainties in politics, but an anthropological study, over a long period of time, might not be a fantasy, at least to the point of indicating that such a capital stock would by any estimate be vastly greater than $7 billion for a major power.

That leaves for consideration the question of proof that my measure will end war forever. My credentials are just about zip, me being mentally ill and all. Nevertheless, I am not so stupid as to state my measure openly and then defend it against counterarguments. I have written down succinctly and it is brief. It is not especially technical and I believe a politician could understand it in essence. The problem is escrow. How do I convince a state to make a $7 billion escrow deposit? I am confident my measure is correct in similar terms to the confidence the Manhattan Project scientists that their first atomic bomb test would work. (I recently read a book entitled, The Making of the Atomic Bomb, written by a Pulitzer Prize winner, though I don't recall if he won it for this book. I thought it was excellent. And I do have a bachelor's degree from U.C.S.C. in physics.) My confidence relates to my part of the escrow. I would have to agree to a definite criterion of success for my measure, and most likely such a criterion would have to have a very long term of application. For one thing, I haven't calculated how long it would take to work. It might not be immediate. For another, since the calculation of an estimate of the cost of past wars would best be made over a long time span, a criterion for success of my measure would best also reach a conclusion only after a long future time span.

I would have to agree to a criterion reaching completion almost certainly long after my own death, causing me to bring into my side of the negotiations a consideration of the certainty of my establishing a lasting genetic line without benefit of a realized payment. I would have to not divulge my measure not only unless the escrow deposit were made, but also not unless I was satisfied it had legal and constitutional strength lasting to the same completion time for the criterion of success. This becomes tricky because states have a tendency not to last long in anthropological terms, which is why I added constitutional strength to legal strength. I believe that if the negotiating state expects me to act in good faith on my side of the escrow, coming to terms with certainty of genetic continuation to my own satisfaction and in my own way, it will act in good faith on its, and only a constitutional provision--an amendment--would give me anything approaching certainty that future citizens of the negotiating state will abide by the terms agreed to by the current citizens.

These are heady notions given my mental illness.

One thing is clear though, the exact time at which the criterion of success of my measure would be assessed determines much of the rest of the deal. I would hope it to be soon, but keeping $7 billion in escrow for a long time would be expensive and the negotiating state would for that reason want it to be soon also.

As for providing a reason for a state to make the escrow deposit, my sole recourse at this stage of discussion is the integrity of my blog. It has been described as great by one of my associates. This gives me confidence I am going in the right direction, and to continue in pursuit of greater objectives than supply and demand allow by themselves.

Flow chart for purchasing English Transformation Art

Purchase Flow Chart

Monday, October 26, 2009

No one night stands or pornography for me any more.

I have come to the conclusion that my experience looking for girls to have sex with as an undergraduate at Yale left unsolved the question of where sex is in my life, and the temporary answer was pretty much just prostitution at a $0 per hour rate. I believe I have come reasonably closer to a real answer and it includes that one-night stands and pornography are not in my best interest. My courtship of Crystal Newell, now over, played a part in coming to this answer. If she had answered yes to the question of is she attracted to me, instead of no as it was, I could have made more progress in answering the question of where sex is in my life. I will have to make do with not being so able to progress for a while. Looking for someone to court is very different from having someone to court.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Relationship with Crystal Newell terminated

I asked my girlfriend, Crystal Newell, if she is attracted to me. She said no. So I have terminated our relationship. I won't bother to tell her unless she asks to go out for pizza again. End of story.

authority gained with test of personal validity

Authority gained by getting control of test of personal validity:

To act in the name of the victim within the most private thoughts.

Unlimited access to effects.

Cover rests in secondary matters for both.

A pause is mandated by these considerations.

Friday, October 23, 2009

City gal's means of keeping her blackball secret

In musing over the blackball city gal has constructed on me, I discovered that my own personal validity test produced a failure.

I find there are two possible consequences:

  • Someone is using it.
  • I'm in the last stages of preparing to die.
I note that city gal is rich by her parents. From my own experience I know that the founder of a successful business would necessarily pass through numerous episodes of desperation, increasing the chances of encountering the proximity of deciding to commit suicide, and the more of these encounters the more likely a working out of the last stages of death, including the release of the test of personal validity.

Such a solution, in the hands of a successful man or his heirs, could be turned to the craft of masking blackball or other such unlawful attacks, by superior knowledge of the solution, in comparison to both the victim and his social context. It is an extremely rare solution.

A second lesson from business success shown by city gal is combat with rivals.

Evidently this involves identifying those who would be rivals anywhere in the nation or world.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

The constraints of success in my life

My social context has always been that given my good attitude and ample abilities it is only a matter of time in any given endeavor before I will succeed--provided. In earlier times "provided" meant for the most part judicious choice of endeavor. With a blackball, all this is changed. The understanding of the patrons of my social context of what "provided" entails is no longer sufficient, and I am forced to explain it to them--a laborious uncertain process that stands as an impediment which most depressingly must be tackled full-time while in the mean time no progress is going to be made on the material substance with which I must contend being blackballed.

There is in this state of affairs no blame for anyone. Yet acceptance is not helpful. I have made plenty of statements about my situation and these have not stabilized it one bit. I sit upon a precipice when I say such things, extending my sight to its limit while knowing that where I sit is only just newly established and the next extension is no more easy than the beginning was.

My adversary has labored in concealment these 29 years with probably vast resources. In heterosexual circles we do things in the open, challenging our rivals included. This kind of secret contest disgusts me. It is a mark of ignominy for the race of men.

Here is this blackball. I cannot show it to you. It is in the darkness. It preys upon my casual nature, and promises to leave in ruin all the things I have done hoping to overcome it, things for my own betterment and that of others. If I make you smile at this, just remember--they don't share your sympathy.

I am very sure I know who it is. I have done what I can to describe the circumstances of my acquaintance of her, not having her name. I know the motive--sexual rivalry. I know the nature of her means--financial wealth from her parents. I have an impression of her character--tough and capable of cruelty. She is the ideal object of war. A enormous chasm separates our camps, in method and values, and I would not be offended if the public took my disgust for her as unsavory. The public is morally shallow.

I would like to leave you with a picture of myself on my deathbed. I ask you: was this man victorious against his arch enemy, or was he defeated? The case will be judged by that far more than by the trappings of victory which I have assembled at present, and which can be seen as inconsequential. And if you read this and do not become calm and reflective and consider what I have said with grave intent, then I will die defeated. I cannot fight this fight alone.

Blackball suspect's motive may be homosexual rivalry over one of my girlfriends

I have given to the UCSC student I suspect has blackballed me the code name "city gal".

I suspected at the time I knew her that she was keeping her roommate as a gay lover. She had a hard edge to her.

It is possible she was jealous of me bing with my girlfriend, Mary Nolin, or other girls or a girl, and used the party issue as a front. If so, the blackball is a rivalry.

The blackballer caused the loosening of my front tooth, and being able to knock loose a guy's tooth is not something you would expect of a heterosexual girl.

My attackers in Santa Cruz were male equivalents of her roommate and Mary--tall, blond, and young. She evidently has a thing for that type of person.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

My fight in Santa Cruz, CA.

My fight on the streets of Santa Cruz, CA., in 1981 was at the corner of Pacific and Soquel, starting on Soquel.

A diagram for the internet

I have drawn my schematic of the internet, above. I don't believe anyone else has tried to do this. It's pretty simple, really, but since no one has made so simple, yet unobvious, a statement, I thought it was worth publishing.

I drew the figure a long time ago, for independent reasons. It represents the growth of logic, and the logic of growth. It does seem, at least to me, to represent also the growth so far in the internet, as the notes on the diagram indicate. Each stage--there are four of them in this version, but more can be derived--comprises all the prior stages within it. The encirclements grow in development in a logical manner.

In the top stage, the encirclement is marked in two places, once by a line and once by a point. I conceive of these as preferred entrances of preferred sites. Over time it becomes apparent some sites are preferred, because they better express the value of the web than others.

Can you infer what the next stage is like? And the one after that? Etc....

Sunday, October 18, 2009

the organization which named me first

I have to clarify, to the extent I am able, what I know about the organization which named me as "first". The Chicago Mafia is not the end of it. There is a part of it which is fully legal, yet has all the power of the criminal division, and moreso. I know nothing of its history. All I observe is that there is a controlling hand at work in America, and that I am given first consideration within my own sphere of activity. This is not autocratic power in my hands. It is enlightened response by someone else to my efforts. I maintain complete legality in my own actions. I inform my actions with the knowledge that nothing I do will be unnoticed. By that criterion I assume responsibility for making things better. It is not a matter of dreaming up schemes. It is a matter of reducing the plethora of confusing impressions to a simple expression of underlying truths, based on experience and reason. It is not easy work.

More than this is difficult to say.

Friday, October 16, 2009

A mystery guest who knows my English ancestry--what they need to know

There is a large mystery guest looking on over me. I think it's somebody who is familiar with my English ancestors. They didn't like what I did at Yale or anything after that. I won't waste their time defending those times. Instead, I point out that in 1981 I had a fight with several young men in Santa Cruz, CA that created a very different constituency for me and anyone who wants to know what I'm doing now needs to know about that fight.

I didn't feign from taking their assault. I was a target because I was homeless, sleeping on a bus bench, in the middle of the night. After seveal minutes they were unable to beat me, though I took a blow. Under cover of night they could have killed me. As a homeless, no one would have investigated. But as the winner, because I walked away without fear, and their intent was totally thwarted, I gained the respect of Santa Cruz youth--one of them came to me after the fight, when I told the kicker that I was unhurt, shaking my hand and said, "Welcome to Santa Cruz!" despite the lingering presence of the attackers. I believe the movie trilogy, "Karate Kid" is a spinoff of this fight, which I am unabashedly proud of, as the portrayal of the central character is quite glamorous, and his teacher quite wise.

I feel confident I have acted in good faith to my performance in the fight, and have made it pay off in social terms by enabling me to be tapped by the Chicago Mafia as a kingpin, a distinction that is rare in anyone's book, regardless of all the unsavory preceding events of mental breakdown and loss of home, and the failures in astronomy and architecture. I am advancing on several fronts as I write, as a recognized king of Chicago.

The mystery guest needs to check these claims out. Much potential is being wasted by their continuing refusal to admit me to national renown, which I believe is their territorial pleasure. None of the groups that have indicated they are following me is able to bring renown without some assurances of backup by the mystery guest.

I believe it is a matter of honor, but also of impact, denied. I refuse to allow my claims to be described as vanity, for which reason I go on at length when I describe my distinctions, to reassure the audience that I am basically a humble guy who just happened to be confronted with great odds, and became a champion most reluctantly, but refuses not to serve as requested in response to these distinctions, and finds the lack of cooperation of the mystery guest quite irksome, but how would they know about the fight in Santa Cruz unless I told them and they checked it out.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

bias towards failure in random events pursuant to business success

I am noticing that in action in pursuit of business success there is a bias in supposedly random mistakes and errors toward failure. I interpret this as indication of my presence on a blacklist. It is an unexpected component of the pursuit of success, but must be accepted as a challenge and dealt with just like all the others.

However, there is a difference between this challenge and the others. The assumption of privacy that extends over all aspects of the life of the person is cast as questionable. The assumption is very deep, both in the mind and in the outer world. It motivates the criminal as well as the lawful citizen. In this it is a statement of assumption about the entire world, that although peering eyes exist, the public is essentially a blind environment, and peering eyes have limited scope and range.

In my experience, seeing random events tend toward failure, this blindness is a false presumption. An entity which operates an eye of universal range in the public way probably began doing it as a defense against crime, in a commercial context. Once such a capacity is developed there is nothing to prevent its being applied to personal vendettas. In it's essence, it is itself criminal, the apex of a criminal hierarchy. The law prohibits such universal seeing.

I have stated in my videos in the sidebar that I have evidence the U.S. government acknowledges certain entities as monarchical, existing within the United States. I myself testify to my belonging to such a monarchical entity, the Italian Mafia. This entity does in fact have universal seeing, and could if it wanted introduce a bias toward failure in the random events in the life of someone it held a personal vendetta against. It is my belief that it does not do this, that its intentions are more noble than that, and that it uses its all-seeing powers to strengthen the American nation, and for this reason the U.S. government legitimizes its existence. Perhaps the entity which leads me into failure has a non-criminal component that gets it the access it needs to produce its own all-seeingness, and the fact that it is operating a blacklist is either generously disregarded or is well hidden.

My history of operation in the Mafia is brief and the mutual understanding of operations held between myself and my associates is very limited. While the whole organization must have considerable understanding of allseeingness, I do not have the experience with it, nor do my associates, that they do. Therefore my contention with this threat requires me to lay out a view of this problem from the ground up, and that is what I am doing at present.

I must assume that until I explore an issue in print, it cannot be assumed to be a part of the dialog between me and the broader reaches of my associates. The broader reaches need to be informed of considerable material relating to my operations in order for them to assess the strength of my position, the merits of my claims, and the potential of their abilities in alliance with my own. Much of this is latent in my mind, awaiting expression for myself to realize it, as well as for the broader reaches to first encounter it. This fact is neither a promise of grand plans nor an introduction to specific designs. Frankly, I have no idea what I have in mind. But neither do I forbid myself from any plan or design that might come upon me.

My primary concern at this point is converting my potential into success. Bias towards failure is the nature of the game at present. We will see what progress can be made against it.

Crystal is a straight A student.

In talking with Crystal, my girlfriend, over dinner last Tuesday I learned that she is a straight A student. She does have some B's, but mostly A's. Also, she has all honors classes. Her last year was the junior year in high school. It's not clear if she completed it. The reason she had to leave school was internal medical problems. I don't know yet what the basis is for her residence at Bryn Mawr Care, our nursing home, or her mental illness diagnosis, which I assume she has.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

pulsed numbers

My code is a system of pulsed numbers. For example:

one: |
two: ||
three: |||

What could be simpler, right?

But I am greedy. I want to represent zero.

Ho Ho, you say. That's impossible.

Well suppose I did it. What would this accomplish?

It would establish placeness. Zero holds a place. That's all it does. It doesn't specify a value. But if I succeed in representing it with a pulsed number, that number specifies place holding for that number, in other words, a number base system.

If the pulsed number I succeed in representing zero with is N, then the base of the number base system it represents is N. I can expect then that no pulses greater than N will occur in a multipulse sample. And in fact, this is exactly how I establish a size of pulse for zero: it is the largest of all pulses occurring in a multipulse sample.

So if I listen to a star in the sky which I suspect is the home system to a race of intelligent creatures who want to inform the galaxy that they are intelligent, I will look for a multipulse sample with a largest pulse size, because such a sample proves this race uses place values for numbers. I would look for the sample to repeat and I would use my place value interpretation to tell me what number is being represented and I will compare that number to my inventory of transcendental numbers, such as pi and e.

I don't need to know how to decode the signal to get numbers. It will just be a pulse. Nothing heavy technologically.

Why aren't we sending pi like this ourselves?

I suggest we do so. Time is wasting.